Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Omg this is like so totally cool...........

omg there is actually a london/paris study trip for apparel design students in tp. i wanna go its like a once in a life time opportunity. it freakin cheap. like $3000. but still i cant really afford it. so i am now still thinking about it totally. I wanna go though. I dun wanna make my friends suffer with the presence of daniel eww.

Hey yo I am like back coz i am like god damn free and dunno wat to do for the moment. I just had like a super heavy dose of ugly betty as ya'll noe that star world is like having ugly betty marathon ohh love so bitchy.
oh ya go to youtube search on Rin on the Rox.

I realise, well not just, how difficult to survive with some people but i guess one just have to smile and just pass by and be a hypocrite. that is the way to survive out in the society the only single way. well i noe that it is not right to be a hypocrite but that's how the society is if one don't be alert lots of daggers will be at your back already. oh yes not to trust everyone at all maybe maximum like 60% to 75% unless one is sure and safe.
Evil society... Grrr...

I guess people are trained differently in their own secondary school as in like how you will react to things and stuff. and how you look at yourself and do the opposite way i for example you say you got fat legs, you are fat or something but you kept wearing things that will reveal your legs, and parts of the body and wear something that is not very nice looking. I dunno whether are attracting attention or not. oh yah and there are like a gazillion of suck ups in TDS omg that is just so omg. I guess i just have to stick with the REAL human beings in TDS omg so its like so omg oh yah if you one to noe who are the suck ups come look for me. :)

omg this is so ridiculous. I am not working now and i still cant rest i am suppose to do house work. omg. and do my gazillion load of assignments WOW. think i superman ah. oh yah and want me to sleep early somemore. wah liao. wat is this why my mother so ridiculous oh gosh... can some one talk some sense into her. my goodness. why cant she just understand my goodness. how am i going to suvive for three years i guess all i have to do is to stay at school and relax basically out of my house where my mother is so i can relax. She dont even wanna talk to her own sister wat the hell then must ask me to ask her then dun ask lah then when my father never transfer money she dunno how to ask herself ah must ask me i already gave up on this horrible relationship with my dad and my mum. Can say that now i am totally living on my own. its true, school fees paying by myself, materials for projects pay by myself food sometimes oso. omg the only thing is i dun have to pay my own phone bills, house, and other misc. I hate it i hate it grrrrrr....

yo finally block one in second sem is over yeah. oh yah i got another A so happy this time is for my evening wear omg omg omg... and today submission for final mini collection i did on beyonce inspired theme like diva, queen like that... hahaha... the funny thing is that the ppl from my last sem class other then that monster and hazel the rest of us take our time to do lor omg... the dateline was 6pm to day but we hand up at like around 9+++ hahaha... we want our work to be of a certain standard lor. thats why. nxt blk Com DI and Drawing Essen lots of ppl say this is the worst combination ever so gd luck to me...

oh my god its like so freakin fast, the first block of Sem 2 just gone like this lor omg damn... hahaha... I had Leadership and Character, and Fashion Illustration and Production Drawing. and i kinda dun like the lecturer for the Leadership class she is like so not flexible one lor and i dun really wanna talk about it already. And omg i got an A for my Fasahion illustration and production drawing and drawing assignment 2 career wear. wow rite hahaha... :) but i saw a like liquided plus behind the A wah damn sad lor...toatally omg and then i ask wilson then he double check he said try harder nxt time which means i just need a few marks more omg omg omg...
Benny u can do it work u ass of for the like final assignment the mini collectionn u can do it yeah.

omg everyone bought their copic marker already and i have not get it.
Art Mart or Art Friend???
Art Mart:
15 and above got 20% I think
so if i buy like 20
(20 X $6) X 0.8= $96
Art Friend:
got only 10%
so if i buy 20
(20 X $6) X 0.1= $108
The difference : $108-$96= $12
which means i can buy 2 more copic marker without discount if i buy at Art mart
but I have to buy it by 27th coz its like if i buy it at 28th i will be rushing alot. but 27th i heard art mart close but i think art friend close. hiaz try my luck tmr to see art mart open or not...

Omg I am so excited tmr school finally starts omg lovin it yeah so excited.

Omg I am so excited tmr school finally starts omg lovin it yeah so excited.

Today went to East coast park with this people to ride bike omg i can't ride it properly hahaha!!!
It was quite Fun shold do this often but i fell down and got myself bruised haha!!! want to do this again yeah Oh yah and i get to know my time table yesterday woohoo!!! and I found out that I am did not get into Italian but into leadership and character CDS its ok i don't mind. and I found out that I am in the same class as Tessa for that module cool!!! haha!!! Kz thats all...

I Miss Them so much my darlins for life

Omg here she goes again, as usual my mum she is not thinking about how I feel and think. It has always been like that. Now worse she did not even take the effort to understand me to know me better. Writing this totally makes me tear I hate it.
she says I have been going out a lot like she don't in her teenage years if I don't go out expect me to stay at home to rot meh. Even if I stay at home and with my mum around it’s like she’s not there ok. All she does is to stay in her room to do her own things like msn, watch movies online. Then I might as well go out with all my friends to chill and talk rite. Oh yah she doesn’t even know that I love to talk.
She also think that I am a horrible gangster she thinks I go out to smoke I stay out late because I do something bad outside can u actually believe it this problem has been around since when I am in Secondary 1. Can u believe it omg and she still did not change. I have told her a lot of times already. She just will not listen its totally ridiculous ok.
Ok stop my nagging. Farewell.

OMG it's been such a long time that i have blog ok just to update. from where i stopped, i had 2D Art Fudamentals and Design History and Culture the last block. omg and finally completed my 1m by 1m painting. then present then went makan with potatoe bunny, shiny, mok mok, cordyceps, Gene and Tong.

then now holidays I am working as usual at pretty fit/beetle bug. F1 SALES needed me a wonderful salesman haha... hey i did top in sales for quite a few days this week ok yesterday i did $1447 ok the rest not even $1000 imagine, a part timer can do better then a full timer what if I am a full timer...??? haha... ok and my manager told me i might be the top salesman for the week. yeah so happy haha...cause everyweek will have a top sales man/ woman. but now damn tired but i am able to relax after tuesday then friday the port folio review i am nervous omg ahhhhh.... kz sign off cya muacks...

omg yesterday was like so fun lah love it so much. we were having the TPCO Latern Festival Celebration damn fun and DSC had a booth. the day before we had to do do some preparation. i am doing the shooting down the sun game and the funny thing is that we did little figurines for the game haha so fun shol did amy winehouse but i forgot to take a photo of it hiaz.hahahaha... oh yah then during the celebration i made new friends yeah this lovely lady called Ela she is damn cute one haha from TPSU. when we finishing the celebration we end it off with the TP mass dance which at first i Dunno how to dance but betty guide so i know a bit, then the chicky dance haha, then is the "temasek's me temasek's you" song haha fun very very fun. love it.

My lappie is healed but memories are gone. All i can is to salvage and find, my precious memories of all kind.

OMG i am so pissed damn... Daniel is so horrible he is such a spoilt brad and not even mature at all. he actually throw his rubbish everywhere he go. And as usual Luvenia is dozing off in class and daniel wanted to actually grab her butt. then when shinyee's group is presenting he actually tried to pour coke on luvenia's top thank god wen hui stop him yi ling also stand up for luvenia. yes its wrong to sleep in class but its not rite to do such things if u wanna wake her just tap her shoulder or can scold her as she is in the wrong but if he do that he is also in the wrong. anyway heard that he is the level head for ADM how can some one like him be a level head my godness horrid. i feel like puking ok disgusted.

OMG now i am using maisurah's lappie. omg my lappie is like gone case lah. omg sian lor... i am so sad my precious photos my precious sexy lovely photo and all my songs. sad omg omg omg...

yeah just came back from DSC Subcomm Training camp... It was pretty fun actually... and make quite a number of new friends. my empire is called Proga means to plan in dunno wat language.
then get to noe my empire mate: Kelly, Shin yee, Gaen, Abi, Jahnah, Amaris, Su, Surah, Li Jun, Maygess, Jing Hui, Jia Hui, Shu Hui, Jem(Jeremy), Elson, Jason, Eric, Ben, Aristotle, Kala, Suzanna, Sure-Li, Eileen, Timothy.
Then Our FAs are Melvin, Wyncy, and Desiree.
At first we dunno whos our FAs.
Mallory who is the programme head told us that our FAs got kidnapped
then 4 FAs escaped, for Proga its Desiree.
Then we have to go look for clues and stuff to go look for Our FAs. Then after finish lookin the clue liao rite we go back LT then we found that kidnapper is Benjamin Simons who is CALEB.
then we were told that our FAs are held in the design entrance then we go look omg they were blind folded with masking tape lah and the masking tape stuck on to melvins hair lah omg.

then we go makan makan.

The nxt day we play station games lor and do plaing and did presentation for the planning.
we ate KFC for dinner then half ate ZI CHAR/ZHU CHAO.
then before slp rite we me and kelly went to fifth floor to buy drink then saw Jem and Elson there then start to chit chat then met timothy.

then slp after that.

then today morning i went to bath at design school OMG its damn cold lah the water but damn refreshing. then ate breakfast then had the presentation again for VANI.then de brief oh yah we played this SI NIU NAI/ WASH MILK game wah damn fun.

then mosses came in tok tok tok then took picture then release. then go eat mac with Kel Abi and Ama

then omg i just came back have to KAN WO MA DE NIAN SE wat lah i am happy and tired then she always spoil my mood one i hate it lah every th=ime like that one.

Yo i actually had a dream yesterday nite. It goes like this, me, janice, joel, jeremy, joanna and cheryl we were taking MRT i think i am going to school coz i alighted at woodlands then when i alight the train dunno wats wrong with it, it just crashed into another train with my cousins in it. I am like god damn worried, scared, petrified. I quickly called my granny, auntie, mother. Then went to the hospital i was so relieved that they are all fine. only with minor injuries.
Then i woke up and i sit there and think for a while i realise that how dear my cousins are to me. They are like part of mua grew up with them although we fight alot after that we still play like any thing.

Smile today went to to photo shoot with Euminl, Agnes and Deena. quite cool at Bukit Batok got studio at blk 154 although the back drop quite like KaNaSia lah but still ok. OMG the two models are like Agnes and Deena DUH they have a shot which is like topless with jeans then Duh i cant watch while they are doing that i am eating hahaha. quite an experince. :)

Cool rite

hahahaah

omg this is so damn true taken frm kelly LJ.

today, as usual i went to work at PRETTYFIT/ BEETLEBUG.
today sales not very good okay... its like its extremely quiet lah not like the usaul sat that is like very crowded. and today miss "big boss" Sophia came down with a franchise guy.
then i saw jessie and she came to visit me after visiting kelly at suntec :). then after that kelly came to visit me.
then something happen
i was actually serving this guy whom after trying and look at his face i noe he will not buy no mater how u actually push or convince but the try to act smart OM patrick go and serve him coz the shop is having god damn low sales what can u do when ppl dun wanna buy and any way the shoes are not very comfortable i mean the beetlebug one. omg horrid then kelly step in and of coz i am stand there lookin tot i mite learn something but to my horror i feel like the customer is being forced to purchase the stupid pair of ugly shoes. omg...
and now i am watching GUESS3 and the harmonica players are amazing omg. and a 13 year old girl dance chacha and jive wow nice.

k lah thats it chow baby.

Today is actually not a very productive day for me
i did nothing at all nothing not my mascot design or own personal design
all i did was to laz around at my cousin's house at choa chu kang
maybe its just me i am getting bored of being alone i want company

hey its me whining again.
ppl did you watch the perfect cut its like the singapore version of niptuck but of course its singapore its gonna be more censored.
thats all nothing much happen

OMG i really miss this grp of gurls

they are frm yusof ishak sec 4e2 class of 2007

they are like the friends of my life.

this picture consist of :

Val, Agnes, Rosma, Elaine, Tiara, Miss Pok, Candice, Siyi, Dna, Lynette, Fahlyn, Alena and Shih sing.

Love them hope to see u gurls soon.

yo!!! peeps i just redo my blog do tag me kz muacks hahahahhahaha lollipop

Long time that i blog
I will try to blog more

I miss ya'll bitches
Agnes- Miss all ur poking me and ur lovely figure.
Valerie- Miss ur horrible sharp and irritating noise. miss ur laughter
Euminl- Miss ur sarcasm. And ur porn star quality.
Mabel- Miss all the bitchin with u kzz BEE PENG.
Qi Fang- Miss u being quiet and bitchy.
Rosma- Miss being in band with u and the diva songs.
Deena- Miss toking and bitchin with u.
Tiara- Miss being crazy with u all the time.

I miss ya'll Divas
Mama Diva, Shakirah- I miss ur dancing and drama.
Baby Diva, Hamidah- I miss all the crazy moments with u.

I miss ya'll Kuas
Elfa-Kua- Miss ur WTF look.
Sidah-Kua-Miss all ur Wateva.
Adelia-Kua- Miss all ur blurness.
Bali-Kua- Miss the chit-chat times with u.

OMG have to like study for tex fun lah omg
so tiring have to memorise
sian

ppl go to this online shop: http://ourdreamwardrobe.blogspot.com
its by my friend

Ok today is a freakin boring day
the tutorial was like omg like secondary school the tables and chairs are like almost the same and worst grey colour.
then today very damn it one the comfort taxi , aapparently me hazi and syid took cab to school, the booked the taxi then it drove away rite under our nose damn it.
then when reach school i went to look for Uncle Wilson with auntie Kelly and auntie Cynthia....
gossip some more things hahahahahahaha..........
then we met alot of our own lovely classmate like Daniel, xiao tong (so cute), mevalia, wen Hui, hazel, maisusu, shin yee.
then when we go in i was in shock coz its like Ms Christine Foong is in there and no other lecturers are there so i tot that the Georgette lady was not going to come.
oh but then Miss Georgette came and shes got my favourite accent, Filipino so cute.

then later during lunch went to ITAS to makan with Naz, susu, kelly

then go library to do the presentation omg 7th Heaven its like so damn packed lah omg omg omg omg.

then we go Cad Lab hahahahaha.... :)
then at nite makan with family

Ok darlings i noe its been ages since i last updated my bloody blog OMG...
just to update i went into appareldesign and merchandising in Temasek poly and had lots of fun during Design Orientation CAmp. then met my sub empire mates:
Tessa(VSC), Maisurah(ADM), Rahsyid(RHD), HAzel(ADM), Shin Yee(ADM), Cheryl(ADM), Wei Jie(ADM), Nina(MOI), Rizal(MOI), Iliyah(MOI), Rafman(EVD), Arif(DUNNO), Sherlyn(I THINK VSC), Ruixian(ADM), Li Ping(ADM), Jowell(RHD), Gean(PID), Michelle(VSC), Aisyah(MOI), Amanda(VSC), Jiayi(MOI),Phoebe(IMD),Nadia(MOI)

With The GLs of DATUM (name of SUb empire):
MaRK (MOI)
Bernice (forget)
Lydia (EVD)

then met ppl like :
Li Ting, Ansel and some other that i forgotten their name

Then we end with Ragata(dunnno how to spell)

Then start school met my class mates:
Maisurah, Hazel, Shin yee, Rui Xian, Daniel, Kelly, Shahnaz, Zhi Yang, SAmantha, Wen Hui, Mevalia, Xiang Yu (her BF everyday wait for her outside or class so sweet rite), Xiao Tong, Cynthia, Jessie (she looks like shu qi), Jia Qi, Stephanie, Beverly, Ya Hoon, Gene, Luvenia, JOyce ( she came in one week after school starts), Cassandra, Yi Ling

all of them very nice
then its our lecturer called Veron with technical assitance Wilson
oso very nice

then our niteare starts assignments like:
tie dye procudures















Silk Screen Printing

BAtik

so thats it for now lah blog nxt time

people i am totally back with joy its been totally ages since i last updated my freaking empty blog...just a msg i am totally changing this blog into my personal blog with fashion, style, beauty advise and tips to like any one male female whatever. lovely oh yeah. cya muacks....

Okay its been a long time since i have updated my blog been really busy with my hectic life you noe. got O levels to study for Prom to plan, weding to go...and many many stuff

really miss my lovely friends of YI. hope to see you guys in your best ok...

hiaz so sad i am so not chosen for the DPA interview... OMG just hope that i score well for my O levels lor... :) now busy with prelim and of cause my art course work.

Its been such a long time since i last blog so busy with so many things but so little time the date line for my o level art is so bloody near and prelim already started hiaz so many things so little time...

i hate my classmates when they say i totally fake my english when i speak my english. it s just so natural that i developed to speak good english okay... so get alife and shut the hell up.

Its Been a long time since i have blog i am so bloody busy. my art coursework is driving me nuts OMG and i am like goin to have my chinese bot camp week nxt wk Damn. and i am going to have my chinese 'O's on the 28th of may OMG so crazy and messy my life now hiaz... But Luckily I got a bursary frm like MDIS its a student trust fund need it to pay for my 'O' levels... Happy bout it coz two of my friends got it to erny and fatin of coz there is only four students from my school got that bursary :) so happy...

Today i so Have My YI Idol Audition for the second round its so sad you noe ... so sad you noe... i totally have bad body language hiaz

Omg today is the bloody stupid useless time consuming E-learnig day. I cant even go on to the website to do all my assignment given by my teachers lor. hate it man .grrr... Most of my friends cannot go on to the web oso lor hiaz...

Yesterday the YIMB just performed a short bloody formation TWO times but in the end we only get 20 recruits... hiaz... dissapointing isnt it... We got so little recruit because we dun have the time to go and grab ppl all we do is to sit down there and warm up practice and do other uneccessary stuff then why must we do a second formation in the first place where there are only like 5 ppl going around asking ppl to join band whom is the senoirs... other cca is like got s many ppl... and we already got so little ppl and all we do is to stand there and do nothing...I was super angry with this thing man super angry... then when we have to pack up the booth no one frm the main band actually help me the ppl who is helping me is samantha and the senoirs... my goodness what they are doing they are busy packing their things and changing trying to go home early... and i was going crazy packing the insturments... then after that i went home and have a god rest lor... what to do... hiaz...

Ok here is my resolution list:

2007 Resolution

1. Kill Azhar!
2. Kill Sufyan!
3. Shopping Spree after 'O'Levels
4. Try to lose weight for prom (DUH!)
5. WORK REALLY HARD!!!
6. Pass my 'O'Levels With FLYING COLOURS!!! :)
7. Have a BFF Party after 'O'Levels
8. Kill Azhar!
9. Kill Sufyan!


Oh yah i wish every one a happy new year Muacks...
I want World Peace To...

today i came back frm my band camp in school i was so tired when i reached home... totally tired... i came back home, have a nice bath then i went to bed it was like totally comfy man... the camp i have to slp in my slpin bag and on the floor which is like hard and uncomfortable.. i had two slpless nite i have to actually force myslef to slp... my gosh i am still tired cause i have to wake up and watch the last episode of charmed...

i was so grt in the last episode so grt so heart warming...Piper got three kids two boys and one girl, Phoebe got married to Cup and had two gals and one in coming and billie is living with her... then Paige have one boy and two girls which is a twin... i think that this is like one of the best tv show ever it will always be in my memories... always... i think that they shud make a movie called charmed the movie...cool haha...

Chu Kang ( PCK ) explaining sex to Chu
Beng's son, Aloysius ...


Aloy : Why is making love so
enjoyable ?
PCK : Aiyah, ah boy, enjoyable becaws,
same like when you dig your nose
with your finger mah !
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Aloy : Do you think women enjoy sex
more than men?
PCK : Of course woman lah ! When you
dig dig your nose, your nose feel
better than your finger,
right ?
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Aloy : Why do women hate it when they
get raped ?
PCK : Ai-yah ! Say, you walk along the
load(road),den someone come over
and dig your nose, you like
or not ? Ehhh ? Don't pray pray ah
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Aloy : Why is it a woman cannot have
sex when she is having her menses?
PCK : Oy !! If your nose bleeding, you
still go and dig meh?? Siow ah !Use
your Blain(brain), use your
blainnn ..........
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Aloy : Why is it most men don't like
wearing condoms when they are making
love?
PCK : Ehhhh, when you dig your nose
ah, you like to dig with a glove
on your finger or not ? Not
the same shiok feeling mah. Corlight
(correct) or not?

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Aloy : Why is making love carried out
in private ?
PCK : Ah boyyyyy, use your blain, use
your blainnnnn . you go and dig your
nose in flont of your whole
class izit ?? Stupid lah!!

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Aloy : Wah ...... Uncle Chu Kang, you
are very good.
PCK : Aiyah ...... best in Singapore
and JB, and some say Batam also ah !!!

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Disney Circle Of Stars - A Dream Is A Wish Your Heart Makes

All:
a dream is a wish.

Raven:
A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you will loose your heartache
Whatever you wish for you keep

Alyson Michalka:
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through

Anneliese Van Der Pol:
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing

Ashley Tisdale:
The dream that you wish will come true

Everyone: hey yea
Raven: hey yea
Everyone: yea yea haaaaaa
Everyone: yea yea yea yea

Dylan Sprouse:
A dream is a wish your heart makes

Kyla:
When you're feeling small

Brenda Song:
alone in the night you whisper

Alyson Michalka:
Thinking no one can hear you at all
You wake with the morning sunlight
To find fortune that is smiling on you

Anneliese Van Der Pol:
Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow
For all you know tomorrow

Raven:
The dream that you wish will come true

Hey yeah, yeah, yeah, hey yeah (a dream is a wish)
Hey yeah, yeah, yeah, hey yeah

Amy Bruckner:
When you can dream
Then you can start
(then you can start)

A dream is a wish you make with your heart
(make with your heart)

When you can dream
Then you can start
(a dream is a wish)
A dream is a wish you make with your heart

Orlando Brown:
A dream is a wish your heart makes

Alyson Michalka & Orlando Brown
When your fast asleep

Ashley Tisdale:
In dreams you will loose your heartache's

Brenda Song:
Whatever you wish for you keep

Raven:
You wake with the morning sunlight

Dylan and Cole Sprouse:
To find fortune that is smiling on you

Anneliese Van Der Pol
Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow

Raven, Anneliese Van Der Pol and Orlando Brown
For all you know tomorrow

Raven:
The dream that you wish will come true

Ricky Ullman:
No matter how your heart is grieving

Kyla:
If you keep on believing

Raven:
The dream that you wish will come true

Hey yeah, yeah, yeah, hey yeah (a dream is a wish)

All:
When you can dream
Then you can start
(then you can start)

A dream is a wish you make with your heart
(make with your heart)

When you can dream
Then you can start
(a dream is a wish)
A dream is a wish you make with your heart

I hate it... every time my mum care is only church & her cell grp i hate it after she join this stupid city harvest church she like totally hypnotise by them and they actually ask me to go now what ever they sae i wont even give a damn man... all my mum thinks about is CHURCH, CHURCH AND MORE CHURCH... Every nite when she come home she will just hide inside the bedroom and on the computer and listen to all those stupid christian songs... and never even actually sit at the sofa nd watch tv with me she will do all that and even have dinner together before she go to church after stopping for a while... she just dun wanna care bout me liao all she listen to is her friends her Christian friends... she sae she care for me but why i dun feel or noe it because its all to late liao i have already turned into this guy who do not noe how to feel the love and care frm ppl... after the divorce i am depressed as my father is not with me liao... then nxt is that my dad got married with a old hag... then have a baby which means he will have less time with me all i want is to go out with my dad not with the old hag and my HALF BROTHER... then my mum went to church then my life starts to loss this feeling called love and care frm others liao i only noe how to care for others but i cant receive love and care back frm them...

OMG yesterday is the most craziest day of man first thing in the morning i went to the art course and then at 12 noon me and aishah went back to school to have the transport back at school to go to the sso concert. then when alena, candice, sugar, pravina, wei ling they me and the 5 gals go so high... then at the concert it is just so great man love it but one thing is like there is this auntie so irritating we actually bought the tix for the whole row and the auntie just come in frm nowhere and sit on the row...then so sad arif elyas and khalis have to go to somebody else sit... so horrible man the i dun even think she understand a word the conductor says haha... o yah the whole concert fadliana is like slping my gosh and rosma, tiara, pravina, weiling, alena, sugar, candice and deena they are like here to check the latino guys out man totally... then in the bus back we all go carzy talkng bout everything that came to our mind...we were like laughing and screaming and shouting ... the bus uncle did not even say any thing lor when we alight we said thank you to the uncle and he was like smiling lotr haha...

Its really horrible coz its like haiqal, sapthala & candice is nominated for the head prefectbut i dun think they are capable of the job first thing is that i heard that haiqal is in the prefect board for like less then sapthala and candice and sapthala is like so ego and so act like she is the queen bee of my school where she can control everything, then candice is like she got lots of mood swings and she already got so many stressful stuff around her and i dun think she can handle this stress... really i dun think all of them are suitable... they are just horrible like this years head prefect jing ting... and one thing the rally is not gonna be fair as haiqal is like so gonna win as u noe haiqal is like frm ncc and will totally take over the votes and therefore candice and sapthala will not stand a chance as it is like so unfair... i think that a head prefect shud poses the qualitys of

responsibility
respondsive
confidence
respect (friends, Family, teachers, Basically every one)
Obey the rules of school and at the same time be flexible
Integrity
Resillient
and many more

being a leader is not that simple as u see as u have to take every single detail to heart not missing even the slightest error or mistake...

then i dun think there shud be any head prefect as it is like a scapegoat position coz every error the other prefect do he or she will be the first one to be blamed by the teachers... therefore in the end its just to let the teachers to have someone to blame on thats the work of head prefect especially MRADAM hate him so much...

unappreciated always been like that Never it has changed why must it be me why must it be me who always suffer whether in school or home what i do is always unappreciated maybe u ppl may think that u appreciated me but why dun i feel it like other ppl do i felt like i am lifeless iflet like i am lonely alll the time... i felt like i am being chuck in the shelves for a long time and then when the owner is bored of the new toys then start to notice me... i always feel like i am a replacement for everything and everyone... and sometimes i do feel like what purpose am i for on this world or even in this galaxy... i cant figure out... i am like stuck in the middle of nowhere... can someone tell me why???

Christina Aguilera - Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were
But I walked away
If only I knew What I know today
Ooh ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you’ve done
Forgive all your mistakes
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won’t be there
Ooh I’m sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt my self by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside
But I wouldn’t be
Sometimes I just wanna hug
Cos it’s you I miss
And it’s so hard to say goodbye
When comes to this ooh
Would you tell me I was wrong
Would you help me understand
Are you looking down upon me
Are you proud of who I am
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do to have just one more chance
To look into you eyes
And see you are looking back
Ooh I’m sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt my self
Ooh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I missed you since you went away
Ooh
It’s dangerous
It’s so ...
To ...
I’m sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt my self by hurting you

Stephen Robert Irwin (22 February 1962 – 4 September 2006), also known as the Crocodile Hunter, was an Australian naturalist and television personality, best known for the television program The Crocodile Hunter, an unconventional wildlife documentary series broadcast worldwide and co-hosted with his wife Terri Irwin. The pair owned and operated Australia Zoo in Beerwah, Queensland.
Irwin parlayed youthful experience as a crocodile trapper into an international television career, a feature film, and a series of accolades in Australia for his promotion of tourism and environmental awareness. Irwin, who had a fearless image as a wrangler of large, dangerous animals, was a committed conservationist. His cavalier showman's approach also drew criticism, especially after an incident when he held his baby boy while feeding crocodiles at his zoo.

People change so fast... or is it just me that is changing extremely slow that i can see that ppl just changes like tat... but i am just me i really cant do any thing to change back all my friends ... its like they have been brain washed by some evil BITCH... ( the brain washer is a girl ) i stop hanging out with them already... the friendship of H ANd P is being ruined by This Bitch who she thinks that she is so clever popular and marvelous... but she dunno that her voice is much much more irritating then mine her voice is so screechy mine is just irritates ppl as i sing to much... but i care what other ppl say coz i love singing if they dun like they go eat shit and die... hiax... Miss H have been brain washed by this BITCH... I Totally hate her... i hate her more then anyone in this world... as she is once my best friend and now she backstabbed me alot... hate her like any thing never will wanna tok about personnel stuff to her again....

hiaz... me and hanisah went for the meeting wif the therepist of sufiyan... she told us something we already noe which is the taking out of the brain the left part of the leg and hand is in bad condition... but she also told us that sufiyan cannot see well on his left eye and the by-pass thingy actually i do not wanna hear about it but i still sit there and listen then when i heard the worst senerio of by-pass i was so shock and sad as it was instant death... i almost cried but i hold back my tears... then after that me and hanisah went home ... i was so down yesterday..

hate it man now Rosli and Shahid are in the committee which i totally dun like it coz they are along side wif azhar and sufyan.......shahid is the sectional leader..... i wanna be sectional leader i hate the decision....... so what i am not very serious i almost everything but if u wan me to be serious i m very serious about it..... hate the decission and i think that syakirah shud be the sectional leader for percussion as she is much much much more capable then rosli...... dun sae that syakirah have a post already fadliana fahlynni fathin and shahid also got post why must chose rosli or shahid....... at least i am much much more discipline then those idiots and by the way the committee do not need 3 brainless, good for nothing, moronic, ppl and then 1 is already making all of us crazy now wif rosli and shahid even worst..... totally hate it.....

Omg today was like so tiring but fun day... first i went to school and go to concord pri to perform for the excel fest then go home wif fahlyn amelina and fidah... then we meet at JP to go watch the singapor idol finalist... then fahlyn got chosen to go up the stage and get exclusive goodies frm Norman Then...then we totally like go crazy over them screaming and shouting... unoe the things that all fans do... then we got up stage and get their auto graph then i hug Rahimah, Gayle, Nurul and Norman the rest i just shake hands:)...then we went to lime flea market to buy things...then we went lucky plaza to eat dinner then go home...

OMG... My school is starting this home room/zone system whichis like the university and like the american high school stlye like we see on tv... we all get to have one locker which is like so cool... i do not have to like worry about whether i have to bring this to school or do not need to bring this to school... and i can like store more magazines now yeah...love this system so much...

my family members my relatives have never been very surpportive in whatever i do maybe because my choices in life is so different from all my young aunties & uncles and my cousins... but that does not make me any different frm any of them... my mum also will not surpport me she onli will see the negative side of every thing i do or see or make or planned... always... they never noe me at all... never... don't noe wat to do...watever at least i do everything that i love wif my heart and passion... just hope they understand...

The show made me cry
my tears flow down
my heart saddened
it feels like I am him
but not as lucky as him
he is being helped
but I am not
he got a good friend
but I... Don't...

People always see me for what I am not who I am
I am more then just what I am
I am just as normal as anyone else

I noe I have flaws
but everyone have flaws
but mine is just so obvious
that all can see

i hope that you can just help
me by not looking at me with the evil eyes
but look at me as agood friend that u have

Softly killed by their ignorence
never been really cared about
hoping to be noticed
but always end up in a mess...

so stressed out by the people around me
and the things around
just feel like dying
just feel like disappearing from this world...

hope u see this msg
and help me frm my suffering
dun let me fall into the bottomless pit
of cold and chill... ...

auntie meli go home tommorow ... cheryl will be very sad one lor....

the evil is back
the ship is sinking
the injury is to deep
if its been saved
the cracked is there
no mather what you do
u can't patch it back
as if thats nothing have happened...

Oh my gosh narnia is so damn nice lorz... i love it so much totally the youngest girl who act as lucy is so cute (when she's crying also)... the lion is so damn big lorz... there are so many creatures in the movie so nice the trees are like email super fast spreading of msg... hahahaha... cool rite... i hate the white witch she is so evil she actuaaly turn some of the creatures of the army of azlan into stone... thenthe four human came to rescue them... cool har... hahahaha... pretty much the story is like that go watch it is nice...

I cannot bare this anymore... why can't i just break the damn relationship between me and the church freaks i hate to see them man... i dunno why i just hate to see them... i dunno why my aunties like them so much... they say that when my couzins go church they turn much better in attitude and stuff like that but why i dun see it coz i m of the same age... and i once go to the COSBT before... its so stupid that i actually go in the first place, anyway is my mum who force me to go... ok lets see... what can i say... oh yah last time when cellgrp shammah and 84th have not joined up cheong seng once told me that he felt left out in the church especially in the cell lor... he told me that dunno which idiot guy frm 84th told him to get lost becoz he is not in BB... the for Janice i heard this frm someone... she LIED to her maid by telling her that she go down to the near by shop to buy some stuff... but actually she went to meet this guy called ZHI WEI he is also frm the COSBT... then Joey And Joel Have Benn Lying To Her Mummy that They did not on the computer... Oh Yah and one thing there are so many materailistic gals in the church i noe its the fashion and stuff but they are always showing of... i hate this guy also He is called Si Heng he is so boastful lor he always like to show of his money and stuff like that and then got one time he wanted to comit suicide just he is stress out... how stupid can he beand by the way i tot Christian shud not lie is not that i m racist or something ok or i wanna go against the Christian ok i just one the leaders to read this post so that they can do something about it... one thing i have to say to the leaders is that somethings they are alos hiding frm u leaders ok...

i apologize if i am being racist

hahahaha..... after so many many many weeks jarrett finally start with the BOOK liaoz veli slow hor i bet the girls have already finish some chapters liao lor... slow lah my grp then there are some new guys join in also lahz... just now at jurong east library lah do the bk... dunno leh i find it rather sian lah... i also dunno why sian lehz??? maybe is it becoz not fun enough i keep YAWNING lorz... i noe its very rude to yawn when someone is talking to you but i just can't help it lor it is so damn sian lor... but the camp for this is veri fun lah... hahaha... thats all lorz...

omg todae i go watch harry potter lor... finally watch it hahaha... i noe its abit slow... hahaha... it is so damn nice lor i love harry potter frm the start lorz oh yah Emma watson has grown much more prettier and hot liaoz then the guy whho act as longbottom is so damn cute now lor hahahaha... yah katie is not bad lah.... hehehe... iwent to watch with fahlyn anfd fidah...oh i also got to noe which class i go for nxt year todae... i got into 3e3 art stream... hahahahaz... i m sort of like half sad half happy lor... never mind about that even if i go 3e2 i also will be half sad half happy one wat... then if i got into 3e1 i would rather go and die liaoz like that hahaha... yah thats all sor todae...

WOW it is so damn tiring lor i have to carry my stupid TUBA on my shoulder as u noe i m in a marching/display band lahz... then yesterdae not that fun lah todae it is much more fun lorz... we had so much marching todae but the best thing is we march without instrument hahaha... every time the senior band members having break we will sort of like have a mini concert/band like that lor i now like-to-meter for band in me is like 75/100 coz its still to tiring for me liaoz... i heard frm the instructor saying that TKSS is training extremely hard but waht if they over train and then faint during SYF nxt year(TOUCH WOOD) ... then anywayz i really love to have more fun in the band lorz... hahaha... thats all...

O My Gosh I went to watch Sky High todae ... it is such a awesome movie i love the part where this girl who is a shape shifter but only can turn into a guine pig ( dunno How To Spell ) is rescuing the whole anti gravity thingy and she was like biting the wire it was so cute man... the is also a guy who can glow in the dark isn't it cool imagine u are glowing when u are sleeping... hahahaha... and there i girl ( but in real life she is a twin ) she can clone herself to so many of herself that she can be a cheer leader squad... o ya i also like this girl she can contol the plants man but she hide her powers to be with this guy whose parents are super heroes. there is also a guy who can turn into a puddle and a guty who can blast fire... every disney movie or show there is a villian one rite and is very ugly one rite but in these movie she is one of the girls where the boys in school will wanna have... thats all...

Verse 1:
Share my life,
Take me for what I am.
'Cause I'll never change
All my colors for you.

Verse 2:
Take my love,
I'll never ask for too much,
Just all that you are
And everything that you do.

Bridge:
I don't really need to look
Very much further/farther,
I don't wanna have to go
Where you don't follow.
I will hold it back again,
This passion inside.
Can't run from myself,
There's nowhere to hide.
(Your love I'll remember forever.)

Chorus:
Don't make me close one more door,
I don't wanna hurt anymore.
Stay in my arms if you dare,
Or must I imagine you there.
Don't walk away from me.
(No, don't walk awya from me. Don't you dare walk away from me.)
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you (you, you, you./If I don't have you, oh, oo.)

Verse 3:
You see through,
Right to the heart of me.
You break down my walls
With the strength of your love.

Verse 4:
I never knew
Love like I've known it with you.
Will a memory survive,
One I can hold on to?

Bridge:
I don't really need to look
Very much further/farther,
I don't wanna have to go
Where you don't follow.
I will hold it back again,
This passion inside.
Can't run from myself,
There's nowhere to hide.
Your love I'll remember forever.

Chorus:
Don't make me close one more door,
I don't wanna hurt anymore.
Stay in my arms if you dare,
Or must I imagine you there.
Don't walk away from me.
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you

Chorus:
Don't make me close one more door,
I don't wanna hurt anymore.
Stay in my arms if you dare,
Or must I imagine you there.
Don't walk away from me.
No, don't walk away from me. Don't you dare walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you

OMG.. This is so fun man...I bet all of us who went to the camp really think it is marvelous camp man but i think it is too short lah the period of time shud put like maybe 2 nites and 3 days lah ... but gd lah the lights off is 1.30am coz all the coaches went for metting frm 11+ to 1+ wat thats why we did not slp lor... but we all lurve the time we have there i have met some new friends there at the camp lor like Tommy Frm CCK SEC, Nabilla Frm Springfield Sec... Really Treasure the time there lor missing the camp site liao but although it looks abit creepy lah it is freaky there lah... there is this Victorian hor He call Himself "JJ" pethetic idoit man... oh yah i also met my Life Coach His name is Jarett... he ok lah Socialble lah... thats all lah... Oh Yah The Photos for the Yusof Ishak Girls who got go one is out hahahaha... Just Click on the Pic there and it will bring u to a gallery...

OMG todae me, fad, fahlyn euminl go for the audition that Miss koh told us to go... it is so fun man so so fun leh... it was like me and euminl go to thye substation first lah i saw JIN JUN lor i was so surprised that he actually listen to Miss koh and go for the audition it was like so so so surprised... then we also saw a girl frm sec 3 also there and then me and the 3 girls are like so crazy we dance like mad... then we were like so happy that we got to exposed to some media things and this is so so so fun man hahahaha... o yah euminl and fad saes that the guy who act as kichiro is very cute i do think so to lah but one thing is that fad like malays and euminl like "ang-mos" every one noes that lor... hahaha thats all...

Plz Click on the picture to go to the gallery for kampong glam tanx...

Try My Quiz

Click on the bus

It was so fun lor... today i mean... Everyone enjoyed themselves at the concert... at the start it was like so boring lor the video everyone was like slping liao... Then the presenters r frm the english department... they are so funny... hahaha... Miss Widya became Rouge and Miss Yen became Storm frm the X-men, Miss ng ang Mdm koh act as characters frm The Mask then dunno which teachers are frm the Flinstone... then our form teacher mrs chuah did a dancing thingy then the MT, arts, D&T & Home econs teacher perfrom a dance item then the humanities department performed a skit ... very funny lah the whole thing... i bet every have fun todae...
HaPpY YoUtH DaY

hiaz this camp very fun and tiring we at first go and have drill prac and then music then drill again then we have promotion test..... after everything we all have our dinner thern games then party then we wash up then we watch the eye 10 that show is so stupid lor is like we can laugh when screaming......hahahaha..... then we went to bed but i did not slp much lah coz of kelvin and shahid lah keep on telling me to wake up... then the nxt day we practice then go home lor.....

i dunno if i m going to survive after school re-opens.... i have this weird dream that one time i suddenly lose my temper and shout at someone (i forgot hu is it liao)it is rather wierd lor usually i will control my temper one leh i will not any how shout at ppl one i noe my voice is loud lah hor... hiaz live this aside lah...

i dunno wat to do i m lonely all the time i have been trying to fit-in every single event or every single grp..... but i m still lonely... i dunno wat m i goin to do... no one got the same interest as me i like to sing and listen to english songs dun like to talk about skewl stuff when not in uniform and i dun like sports but my friends they like to sing and listen to chinese songs like to talk about skwel stuff whenever and wherever and they love sports..... i just wanted somebody to like have the same interest as me...... all i need is somebody who wanted to noe better and noe my secrets and will not exposed it lor..... but is there anyone like that in my life... no... but u see my "friends" have friends who even wanted to have the same hairstyle, clothes, shoes, handbags, accessories, cca, class.... basically same life... i have nobody to turn to when i needed help in every thing...... i have to worked hard for it....... with no help at all no one will ever help me.... why because i m a freak i m a boi who have nothing, i m a boi hu is a irriting and annoying to everybody in this Earth... i noe sometimes i tend to ask questions but i m concern........and when sometimes i felt lonely they will like cum to me and ask why so sian then i will tell them wat happen but did they listen .... they did not..... they just wanted to open their golden stupid mouth to talk only....... i m just someone who onli noe how to eat to everybody out there....... because i felt lonely i felt so empty i felt so like eating to fill the emptiness within me ...... i just wanted to make more friends thats all... i am so fat because i have nothing to do, felt so lonely and i will start to eat andeat and eat and eat.... hiaz......

todae i went out with FangTing and Yi Qian.... We wanted to go causeway one but we lazy thats why we stay at lot 1.... we went to bought the tix for Madagascar..... then we went to LOng John Slivers to eat Lunch..... Fang Ting Only ate 1 chicken filiet an di finished up for her.... then we went to watch movie lor.... the movie is so funny.... got one part is that the lion called alex he called someone and in the end the ppl only heard lion roaring and the giraffe Marty he dun even noe that he is born with the spots all over him then he claimed that his medical fees only the New York's zoo can pay ...... stupid isn't it......... then we went to take neo print then took the Mrt to jurong East then walk To IMM then we went to buy some drinks then we went to this book stall to buy notebooks then we went to Daiso and shop...... anyway i went back with nothing but a full stomach lor...... hahahaha.....wateva........

hiaz....... lately i have been thinking about my frens lor..... i dun even think that i have frens at all lor...... frens are suppose to be there for each other, never judge each other, true to each other, loyal to each other and support u in wateva things u do.... yah i saw this in some of my "frens" but i don't see them making use of this qualities on me ......... i m always even being in sulted by my own frens then wat frens are they why won't they think before they open their stupid fcuking mouth...... is not that i hate them or some thing is that i just dun wanna be insulted and one thing i noe i am sometimes straight forward but i am trying to change......and whenever i feel so sad and dissappointed i eally feel like telling a fren but i have no one to turn to .........sad enough i dun fit in to any company..... not even euminl's grp or fad's grp or who so ever's grp i m just a outcast totally not suppose to be in this world i m totally not a normal person i noe i have skin problems i have lots of female frens and little male frens so i m also a human rite i m not a freak or something...... then does that mean that i m a sissy or gay or something i m a boi who wanted to study, play, sing, do everything i always wanted to do, in a normal place a place where no one looks down on me but they will encourage me all the way till i have my sucess...... i think lah my frens dun care for me at all lor ...... i just shud not belong to this world lor i m a total boi or maybe freak to u ppl standing in a island in the middle of no where shouting for help but no ones there for me ........ i m just a useless bum who can't even do a thing rite at all(like picking up a pen).......

*sori if there are some bad words inside.....

actually this post is frm 8-10 of june 2005..........

on the 8th me, jan, joey, gina, giana, reen, ting2, si heng, ryan chew, faith and kenni go joey houz...... they sing K and then eat and play and talk and eat again....... then on 9th, i at jan and joey houz do nothing ...... veri boring that dae.... then on 10th, todae i also do nothing........ boring......... hahhahahahahaha......... the end.........

i have been so lonely now a daes......... which i don't like... totally don''t like.... why must this always happen to me i m so like alon and why adults just don't wanna try to understand us lor...... it is like ...... u noe parents dun understand us....... maybe this is the Teenage Pain but..... haiz.... it is still important that we can have our own freedom and have the rite to talk for ourself... hiazzz... just wanna end this thing lah... just dun think to much lor...

still got one thing i think..... actually some of my Yusof friends also think ........ that Liang Jie change alot afterhe stead with Wan Rong which is Lu Wei's couzin lor...... last time i tell him that i go for work and late cum to band for like 5 mins he did not punish me ....... then that time on fridae 3-6-05, i came late by like 5 mins and i tell Liang Jie lor that i go to work before i come to band then he punish me lor..... Miss poh did not sae anything lor she sae at least i make it lor.... anyway he is still a Assitant drum major lor..... Yun Ping have not officially step down kz...... hiaz just wonder why human beings like to like..... change friends all the time why can't they be faithful, truthful, loyal, trusty to your friends ...... this is wat i think lah.........

long time never put post liao lor ............ so i decide to put every single day frm 26-5 to 30-5....... on 26 a thursday i went for the air rifle lesson it was quite simple lah hor loved it.......... and during breack time me and my friends went to eat the food over there it was so nice especially the fish filiet......... hungry rite hahahaha...... then on 27 i went to skewl do nothing till i went to a camp which is called TAF Camp......... then so sad enough i fell sick during one of the games when i suddenly vomitted lor .......... then Mr Tan tell me to go home....... then i went to my auntie hoz to stay ....... the next day which is 28, my auntie went to send the wedding cakes and cards lor not bad lor..... then i went to church then lisa do follow-up with me then we went to the second story lah for the briefing for the games day lor........ then on 29, i went to bible study with cheong seng then during bible study Janice, Theresa and Georgina came in and they are totally drenched lor....... can u imagine i already felt cold when i m not drenched can u imagine how cold are they....... then we went to makan heaven (again)then we went to BP PLaZA to shop around then go joey houz....... then on 30, i went to school for some study better enrichment class it was quite fun and inspiring lor..... not bad at all.........so bb thats all for the last few days.........

put a * for the questions dat is yes....

01. i have a cell phone. *
02. i have friends who use me. *
03. i am an only child.*
04. i am a shopoholic. *
05. i love dangly earrings.
06. i have smoked a cigarette before.
07. i love cold weather. *
08. i'm obsessed with the computer. *
09. i have shot a gun before.*
10. i can't live without music. *
11. i have no tolerance of ignorant people.
12. i have ridden on a motorcycle before.
13. i'll be in this town forever.
14. i've been to 5 other countries. *
15. i get annoyed easily.
16. i eventually want kids.
17. i have neat handwriting.
18. i have more than a few horrible memories. *
19. i am addicted to chocolate. *
20. i am an atheist.
21. my parents are strict. *
22. i love airplane rides. *
23. i love taking pictures. *
24. i hate girls who are fake. *
25. i can be mean when i want to. *
26. my parents care about my grades. *
27. one of my best friends is a guy. *
28. i have way too many purses.
29. i'm obsessed with lip gloss.
30. i am easy to talk to. *
31. i would never eat raw fish.
32. i cry easily. *
33. i hate it when people are late.
34. i procrastinate.
35. i love winter. *
36. i have too many clothes for my closet/dresser. *
37. i love to sleep. *
38. i wish i were smarter. *
39. i'm afraid of flying.
40. i hate drama.
41. i bite my nails.
42. i have been on an 8 hour drive. *
43. i never fight with my parents.
44. i love the beach. *
45. i have never had the chicken pox.
46. i have gone out in public in my pajamas. *
47. i can't control my emotions. *
48. i have a best friend. *
49. i have moved more than once. *
50. i truly love my friends. *
51. i have braces.
52. i love to write.
53. i have never broken a bone.
54. i agree with racist people.
55. i hate my computer.
56. i love guys that play guitar.
57. i state the obvious. *
58. i'm a happy person. *
59. i love to dance.
60. i love to sing. *
61. i love cleaning my room.
62. i tend to get jealous very easily. *
63. i love cute underwear.
64. i have gotten high fever before. *
65. i love night better than day. *
66. i have been on the phone for over 5 hours at a time. *
67. i don't like to study for tests. *
68. i love God. *
69. i am too forgiving. *
70. i have horrible sense in direction.
71. i miss primary school. *
72. i have had a girlfriend before.
73. i'm a daddy's boy.
74. i love kisses on my forehead.
75. i love the color pink.
76. i love to sew.
77. my eye color changes.
78. i should see a therapist.
79. i played on a guys sports team.
80. i become stressed easily. *
81. i hate liars. *
82. i like comfy sweatpants.
83. i can play the piano.
84. i love the smell of rain. *
85. i love my family. *
86. i hate needles.
87. i am a perfectionist.
88. i always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. i hate the feeling of failure. *
90. i have friends in other countries. *
91. i know how to cook. *
92. i can be quite selfish. *
93. at times, i still act like a little kid. *
94. i have food allergies *
95. i love little kids. *
96. i love to read. *
97. i wish i were more motivated for school. *
98. i love getting stuff in the mail.
99. i have problems with letting go of old feelings. *
100. i hate being alone. *
101. i love summer. *
102. i love the weekends. *
103. i love black eyeliner.
104. i think i'm pretty.
105. i type with one hand *
106. i live in a one story house. *
107. i wear make-up. *
108. i have never ridden on an underground subway. *
109. i can't swim.
110. i have a bad memory. *
111. i go to church.
112. i sing in the shower.
113. i have never been camping.
114. i hate cheerleaders.
115. i LiKe To FiNiSh. *

toadae is so tiring lor......... i went to skewl in the mornig then i got this amazing race thingy ....... our first stop is at CCK Shaw but we went to clementi to raise some funds first but we raise until abit onli..... then we go to CCK we go house to house then fad and fahlyn got to the ammount of $$$ we needed for each of us...... then we went back to CCK MRT station to help myself to raise $$$ for the Children's Medical Fund.......then we then go for our first mission ........ then we went go long john slivers to makan ......... then we wait until 1.30pm then we go back school ....... hiaz....... tired......

Todae ok lah …. I woke up in the morning then play computer then go joey house for a while then I go out alone lor I went lot 1 then I go to orchad and walk almost all the shopping center there then toke the MRT to Bugis……. That side I bought two pens then a very cute sharpener and a packet of glow in the dark glitter nice leh……. Then went to Janice house to stay…… then dunno what happen to that Jeremy …… He is such a PAIN….. I was like OMG he went to Habo to play where he is way way under age fer that game duh…… then I told him to stop and he go other website to play…… then at around 8:15pm Jeremy’s crazy cell came up and dunno what happen he attack me then he took a bamboo stick then hit me with it and now my stomach area got a blue black lor…… so evil is he then I got angry I snatch the bamboo stick and hit it on the floor then it break then I think he got scared he started to throw the blanket I m using at me so I threw it back then that BRAT went back to his room to watch TV and sure enough I tell U I sure kana scolded one never mind if I get scolded fer the reason that I break the bamboo stick but if I got scolded fer starting the fight …… I sure am innocent for that ok is that BRAT JEREMY started it he is totally like JOEL lor…… I just can’t stand them they always triggers the happy mode of mine to angry mode lor………… then I agree this makes me more like I m a criminal ……… coz I m still older then I m still in the wrong lor ……… and still the same they are in the rite side like they are the “angles” and I m the “devil” …… I dun care much about them I onli care about my other cozins, Janice, Joey, Joanna and Cheryl lor…… one thing why can’t most of the bois think like me not that I m saying that I m very clever or something lor I sometimes also my a fool of myself lor …… Oh yah one thing also I feel like where ever I m I felt lonely and left out one dunno why lah hor …… maybe it is just me ……. But if all the frens of mine really are my true frens…… they shud not stop me frm singing all the time like The Geeraldines and Michelle OO loh………. So sian lah I also feel that I dun frens at all lor I feel that I can’t do a thing rite one lor I think I m just an idiot that everyone hates even whatever I do they want to judge me one lor they will just let me whwt I wanna be lor ………. So ad sometimes…………. I just hopes that ppl will not look down on me that’s all ………. I dun need much frens at just needed them to spend my time just like what they do to me …… they treated me as a replacement for their best frens lor…. Like I m totally extra ……. But actually I m just trying to fit in lor…….. I m always trying to fit in to my frens…….. I dun even care what nick names my male school mates gave me I just live on my life lor…….. I really wanted to make more frens one lor seriously lor……. but one thing I really I hope is that everybody I noe will read this post lor really ………. I hope that they will noe how I feel about how they treat me ………

Ok todae i finally go bible study lor kuai rite hahahaha..... i never go bible study B4 one leh my first time leh .......and then after bible study we go to makan heaven then dunno wat happen theresa suddenly give attitude again..... i dun understand why she everytime give attitude one loh .......then me michelle oo and alyssa go JP to buy present for JOEL ....... then kenni suddenly call me.... he said that cynthia's wallet went missing lor ... then i went to look for it in the bus...... but sad enough we did not find it ..... then we went to the party liao lor joel birthday what ........ then when we reach Lakeside MRT station we saw faith and the rest lor then watt wei hao and the rest of the BB boys that is joel's friends lah come then he say they still need to wait for other ppl so me, alyssa, michelle oo and Faith go cheers and buy drinks then i bought this drink which is like discusting lor ...... then we went back to the interchange to look for Joel and the bois..... then cannot find them lorthey like PS us lor even though there are 2 GB girls lor..... lucky i noe how to go to the party lor then i bring the girls there ....... then we eat and play lor so many ppl go watch that stupid show I DO I DO i wtch tv then got What A Girl Wants lor....... nice leh...... then suddenly so quiet in the hall lor onli me michelle oo , kai yee and Xiao zhiwei in there onli lor so quiet loh then i went down to the pool to watch joey they all swim then ..... after that we went to the hall to sing B.dae song fer JOEL ..... the B.dae cake was like so childish lor a soccer ball lor stupid cake ...... thats all lor ..... bb.....

wow..... i can't believe it i turned leader liao lor.... i am the chair-man for my class ............. and maybe sectional leader for tuba in band......now wat anne says that i got the potential to be a leader.... i was like so hhappy to hear that lor ........ todae was like full of surprises lor so bb ....... nothing to say liao o yah happy birthday to watt wei hao...........

Yeah Exams finally over liao so gd .......... or else i will be like this not like that celebrating............ hahahahaha.......... until next time byebye...........oh yah gd luck for ur friday the 13.......... hehehehehe...

erm today we go church then got combine cell with 84th ............ quite fun lah hor........... onli that i am abit late........... hehehehehe.................. then after cell me jan and joel..... wanted to wait fer joel's dad to come and fetch us the our auntie's houz but we think he very slow indeed he is slow so we took the bus.....we took 173 to bukit batok then half way joel say we can walk there so we get down the bus..........and we walk to bukit batok so tiring u noe frm bukit timah leh............. hiaz..................

hiaz...... the exams have come ................. got so many subjects to study lor...........sometimes i wonder why must there be so many exams to noe how good we are may be we are onli good at some chapters but bad at the other chapters what stupid man so stupid lor ......... must have so many exams ...................dunno lah i dun cae just study for the exams lor ........ good luck..............

Sian lah Todae not much to sae no interesting thing have happen now ades just books and books and study and study coz my skool's exam starts on 29 april ........ but the good news is that we can go straight home after the exams ..... i scared that i might fail my chinese and math again how ..... can someone plz tell me ............. scared scared leh............. hiaz ..............

so tired leh todae i got detention just becoz i dunno i must go for STAR ........ and ppl Having Been Ordering the photo and i m so busy coz they are swarming to me a bunch of bees kkkkkkkkk........... i hate this kind of stress loh......... 1 thing ppl dun ever mix to much with HUI HUI IN MY KLASS HOR IT IS BAD SHE BACKSTAB LOTS OF PPL B$ HOR AND THEN SO LIKE TO ACT CUTE ALSO LOR...............

ehy todae veri fun leh .....the cell every body enjoy it loh and there are some new peeps hahahahaha......... then we got sing this so called God en Liken O Getta
it is a song frm other country lor so fun lah hor ..then during the nite life we watch tis show called Passion Of Christ veri nice ..but i was like crying frm the begining of the show to the end loh .but of coz not really frm the start lah like 15 mins after the show start ............. so sad loh ............... tats all ........

omg SO TIRED AFTER DOING SO MANY THINGS AND WAKING UP AT 6am to go to church for the cafe duty........... its fun man first we got a briefing frm BIG Zhi Wei hor........... then i went out of the cafe to hlep to carry tables and chairs then i went in to the counetr and help out ......... then Georgna went for the meeting then i help her do thefrying of chicken but i did not do a good job for the first batch of chicken that i fry butthe rest are perfect lah hor........... then do some cleaning up lor then go home liao hahahaha so fun but tiring...............

wow the SYNERG!Z confrence was so gd and fun ....................... i like the part when i attended tis workshop which is Great Expectations............ It talk about stress and somethingy like that........... alot of Youth Impact ppl got go ............. during the PLANET SHKERS CONCERT it is so fun lor n it is so nice to have such a worship session for Him........... how i wish i could be there agian nxt year oh yah one thing i think the speakers there are really gd coz they talk about wat i needed to noe which prayed to God before .................. like stress thingy............. kk thats all .............. tata

dunno leh i think i m in so bored nothing to do........... the whole holidae was like so boring ppl can go shopping , c movie and go outside and play and c movies..........but i cannot go i m so sad lor and then so the left out ................ why i m always the one being left out and cannot even hangout with my frens at the mall or something like that all my frens are so the fortunate not like me must stay at home and study like an idiot i dun wanna be a nerd or a boring person........... see i tell u sure tis sat hor ppl will be talking bout the things in planet shakers one ......100% chop chop .............. then i will be sitting there listen to the fun things they are having so sad hiaz........... i dun understand why adults always dun understand us teens they always sae tis is for ur on gd but in the end we teens are the one who suffer lor........ they cannot feel how much pain we are in lor ........ im not being dramatic lor i m just being me kkkk................. parents never ever noes wat we wants and wat we dun wan lor.......... tahts why some of us teens are going crazy do some stupid things like self abuse or commit suicide or smoke in tis young age is not that we do all tis for fun leh we do all tis to release stress lor .............. lost of my frens are gangsters coz they tell me they can onli find freedom when they are with their frens .................. they felt veri insercure with their parents around lor i just dun understand at all........... is it just because that we are the kid of our parents heart then they can order us around like shit ................ sori for all those "evil" words i have ritten down here hor........... thats all i gotta sae ............... hiaz........... stress lah............

Oh my i dun todae is a veri stressful dae l0r ......... i got to run frm my class 2e1 to another class 4na coz one of my classmate's $50 got stolen lor then is Darren steal one lor ......... Our English teacher is absent so we got to go study corner and there are some assistant teacher there lah........ then onli me, fadliana, fahlynni and some other ppl did not go back to the class room to take the pencil box and the books .......... then when my class got down to the study corner my friend darren went up back to the class room and rafi saw it coz rafi wanna check the hp ........ Darren went to the classroom to steal the money of Amos lor....... thats how the story goes ........ so sad ........

Dreams are just dreams
When they're stuck inside your head
And all it takes is a little help from you
You know it's true
That dreams are for real
When you see what I see
And you feel it too
We took the longest road
Just to make it harder
Let's do it all again
It only makes us stronger
[Chorus:]
DreamsI guess we're just made of dream
Nothin' else matters
As long as we believeI'm lookin' at you
And I see my life
Passing before my eyes
And when the journey's over
And all my dreams come trueI'll dream of you
What do you see
When you look inside your heart
A little thought
Can walk a thousand miles
And change your life
When dreams lead the way
The impossible is suddenly in sight
Every step you take
Just brings it all together
You gotta keep the faith
When all seems lost forever
[Chorus]
You're the one
That keeps my hope alive
My vision clear
I'll spend my life with youConquer fear
We'll make it through
Nothin' else matters As long as we believe
I'm lookin' at you
And I see my life
Passing before my eyes
And when the journey's over
And all my dreams come true
I'll dream of you
I'll dream of you
I'll dream of you

wah liao so tired........but veri fun ...todae i go shammah outing there are all together 12 ppl go.............. The ppl are........ Anne, Cynthia, Joey, Doreen, Theresa, Goergina, Georgiana, Ying lin, Vivian, Esther, Jovies and me ......... we had games and we praise and worship........ then i got abit sick then i go toilet vomit lah.......... I think is because of the hot whether lah hor.......... then over all we had fun lah....... thats all lah.............

oH MY ToDaE Is sAtUrDaE As uSuAl I Go tO ChURC FoR cell gRp aNd SaT nItE LiFe ............ ThEn GO FoR DiNnEr ............. We wEnT To bEaUtY WoRlD AnD hAvE DinNeR lAh aNd aCtUaLLy I WaNNA LooK At tHe "Ba gUt taE" StOrE GoT wAt tO EaT wAt ThEn i aCCiDeNtTaLLy sEE UnTiL ThE EyEs oF A GaNgStEr tHeN I vERi sCaRed ........ SO i tEll mY CeLL GrP MeMbEr lAH ....... tHeN aFtEr a wHiLe tHe FooD ThAt i oRdEr hAveN CuM ThEn i cAll ZhI WeI To aCcOmPaNy mE To ThE hOkkIen nOddlE StAll tHeN wHeN wE CuM BaCk tHoSe GaNgStEr sTaNd up ANd oNe oF ThEm wAnTeD To knOcKed oNtO Me tHeN I qUiCkIly siAm bUt hE StIll pUrPoSelY bAnG To mE tHeN NeVeR MiNd i sAiD SORRY LIaO TheN tHe oThEr gAnGsTers cUm AnD One oF ThEm sAe sOrI GoT USe tHeN WaT iS ThE Use oF pOlIce ......... tHen i tUrN BaCk AnD See NaNa ThEn sHe cAll mR ChIN to CuM HeLp tHeN DaRrEll aLsO CUm lah tHen AfTeR aWhIle tHoSe gANGsTeRs sAe nEvErMiNd lIao thEn i gO bAcK To mY SiT........ TheN OnE Of tHe gAnGsTeRs kIcK ThE StAll vEnDoR's cHaIr AnD ThE unClE scOlded hIm thEn He PICk uP ......... ThE UnClE ANd aUnTiE OF thE StAll iS So gD thE UnClE SaE iF TOsE PpL pUnCh mE OnCe hE WIll pUnCh ToSE Ppl 3 tImEs mOrE ......... tHeN ThE UnClE tAlK To tOsE PPl then iGo hOmE LiAo....... i wAnA ThAk ZhI WeI fOr sEnDiNg mE HoMe lOR......

ScHoOl sTaRtS FoR 3 dAeS LiAo ............... EvErYoNe iS LiKe vErI SiAn HoR HaVe tO WaKe Up eArLy iN ThE mOrNiNg jUsT To gO To sChOoL LoR .............. SiAnZ lOr ........ JuSt tEll eVeRyOnE OuT ThErE To StUdY HaRd aNd cAn grOW StRoNgEr iN GoD ........

hehehehehehe...................... VeRi lOnG NeVeR RiTe aPoSt lIaO HoR HaHaHa............ CoZ I GoT YI cAmP It iS A ChUrCh cAmP WhIcH Is sO FuN So cOoL sO tHe Erm............... AwEsOmE HaHaHa...................... ThE PeePs At tHe CaMp wErE VeRi nIcE To mE Lor i jUsT WaNnA ThAnK To aLl tHe pEePs oUt thErE WhO PrAyEd fOr mE CoZ I InJuReD My aNkEl DuRiNg tHe aMaZiNg rAcE AnD ThEn i wAs iN ThE NORTH DISTRICT (NORTH RULZ)HaHa N ThEn mY TrIBe wAs wOoDLaNdS LoR So tHErE MuSt bE 1 Or 2 MaYoRs fOr nOrTh wAt tHeY aRe AnDreW AnD LyNn ThEy ArE niCe peepas lOr N mY TrIbE TL anD ATL ArE AuDrey AnD Wee HuAt tHey aLSo vErI NicE lah thak GoD FoR EvErY ThIng ............ OOOO By tHe WaY I ReCiVeD TaNgS LeH So eXiTeD loR MuSt clAp hAnD HoR HaHahahaha ......... i nOe lOts Of nEw fRiNdS AlSo lOr LikE Lu Wei , Wai Kiat , adelene , audrey , cclia , huishan , Tiffany , ziya , weehuat , shan yao , noel , Lu Mei , Kai Yee , Daren , DA Zhi Wei , Jeffrey And many more lor and then i also noe alot of dirty habits of the girls and bois over there some like to slp with their legs open and some snores hahahaha music orchastra at the bois dorm hahahahaha.............. thats alllll .....

Benjamin,7:19 AM

Sunday, December 05, 2004

WoW !!!! the shammah girls all wear skirt leh theylook soooooo the pretty lor hahahahaha........................ ying lin also veri pretty her dress is soooooo the cute lor n hen annlin dance on stage was so nice lor ........ and then i got some comments about the newly weds..... they arejust soooooooo the match one sooo pretty the other one so handsome hahahahaha........ thats allll .........

Benjamin,2:31 PM

Saturday, December 04, 2004

WHY ......... the world is so unfair i so sian and then no one online sob sob sob sob sob sob sob sob sob ................. how i wish it was christmas now can get alot of present ..... and then some shopping centre got post christmas sale so nice bb.........

Benjamin,4:49 AM

Friday, November 26, 2004

I performed on staged today ....... of course is for my school's open house .................. hiaz............ so tired n then i also give out flyers at some blocks around Speedy Tution Centre ............. veri fun i have given out about 400 copies liao lor.......... oops i tot i m talking about band performance ????? back at the stage i was also veri sian one leh so early tell us to go school to perform but it started at 12:30 pm sian sia ......... i go home early because i have to work lah u c i rite the story of the working tingy liao hor (at the top) . so signing off .....................................bb

Benjamin,9:09 AM

Friday, November 19, 2004

hiaz i m so the tired ........ so bored ................ so the hiaz .............. how i wished i could go shopping
with my frens hiaz ............... joey n her frens r not in nobody to talk to ................ joel n joanna n janice n jeremy at skool cannot talk to them so the sianz hiaz........... and the maid also not in so sianz.................. how i wish i m at skool now.......

Benjamin,5:01 AM

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

Wah liao.................. i go to sentosa and celebrate theresa brithday . we play at the sea and wen jun , alvin , georgiana , georgina , janice , joel , joey , theresa , zhi jie , doreen , cynthia , damien and me . we were so hapy lor hahahahahahaha.......... thats all signing of ......

Benjamin,11:48 AM

Monday, November 15, 2004

veri long enver rite post liao ....hahaha..................... i just came back frm malacca....... i did not expect that i have spend so much almost 300 + u noe .............. but over all i still like kuala lumpur is better hahahahahaha............

Benjamin,11:49 AM

Friday, November 12, 2004

Oh...my. I am so tired . i feel like sleeping for 10 hours and not wake up but cannot i have to wake up at 5 am on the nxt day as i m going to malaysia the next day . i just had dinner with my relatives and the end my cousin Joel was feeling so high that he sang 2 songs (of course he is high , he drank wine ) . Ha! Ha! o ... n tis is my 1st time hearing ah Gel sis sing a hokkien song . she is really good at it .

Benjamin,2:28 PM